**Disclaimer: I'm not saying that school is bad, I just think the system needs a change**
I'll start by saying, it's okay. Because really it is. If you haven't noticed already but you are actually just following a system which has been set in place as a means to keep you moving forward. They tell you that you must aim for greatness or success or whatever the people controlling the 'system' want.
I always hated school. And I'm definitely not the only one who thinks that.
Do you know when you start to hate it the most? When people keep posing questions about your future.
These people are most likely your teachers, family and friends of the fam who probably haven't seen your since you were a little kid. Yet still, they think their opinion is somewhat valid for your future choices. Uh, come on. You're meant to be just telling me how you need to put bricks on my head because of how tall I've grown since I was a toddler. Shocking right... that I've actually grown since I was a toddler.
Everything changes when you enter middle school. Grade 8 begins and suddenly you're in a whirl wind of deciding the subjects you'll be doing for the next year, keeping in mind that those subjects will ultimately decide how grade 10, 11 and 12 pans out.
This is when the system turns to crap. You're starring at that form in grade 10 trying to put ticks beside those six subjects. Teachers are speaking their daily lecture of making wise choices as they are detrimental to grade 11 and 12.
I'll admit, grade 10 was my worst year. Trying to keep my head above water in terms of assessment, the stress of trying to fit into the school mould whilst also battling with some sickness. The last thing that I wanted to decide upon was my future. Can you understand why crying on the bathroom floor most days would be the result of this?
Mum pulled me out of school. And it was the best thing she could have done. I was able to spend a semester of home schooling, getting better, getting stronger for the next two years. I had envisioned myself graduating from school but it felt like such a long time away. Taking the time to refresh in the comfortability of my home was just what I needed.
Why hello grade 11 and 12! I thought I was ready to conquer the last years of my schooling life. But I found out that nothing can really prepare you. *Cue another round of subject deciding* and you're one step away from going insane with all these decisions. (For Queenslanders) You'll hit grade 11 and are instantly thrown into QCS practise. At my school we were preparing for this test for over a year before we sat it. That's how our system goes. Not only will you be asked questions about what OP you want to get, you'll also have to make decisions on what degree you want to do and where you want to study. Keep in mind that the biggest thing people will respond with when you tell them the degree you're studying is, "Oh and what job do you want with that, and oh, does it pay well?". It's unfortunate that most of us are growing up with our main concern being money.
Guess what... I want to let you know that I'm two years out of school and I still don't know what's going on with my life. And if that doesn't comfort you then I have many friends who will back up that claim because it's relevant in their own lives too. Some have taken gap years before university, some have entered university for a year and then taken a year off to rest. It's okay to do whatever.
Because right now we are at a stage in our lives where we are in control and any decisions we make are our own choices. It's actually a sweet thing. *BRB Packing my bags to Italy*
I'm first year into university and I've already changed degree's three times. Kinda feels like I'm working my way slowly down my QTAC preference list.
It's alright because we are all moving forward in some way. Remember that.
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